How I joined the Lahore Ahmadiyya
Jamaat
by Sister Maha Dabbous, Egypt
(Note by muslim.org website: The article presented below
was written for us by Maha Dabbous in November 1999 when she left
the Qadiani Jamaat to join us. A few months later she rejoined
the Qadiani Jamaat and wrote another article explaining her
return, which is still available at the Qadiani Jamaat website
www.alislam.org. Our purpose in still keeping her first article
online, as given below, is not to suggest or imply that she
still maintains this position, but to show the arguments on
which she based her decision to join the Lahore Ahmadiyya. Readers
can compare these with the reasons she gives for her return in her
article at the Qadiani Jamaat website and draw their own conclusions
as to which case is stronger.)
I come from a Sunni Muslim family in Egypt, where I was born in
1955. I was brought up and educated in Cairo. My father was a judge
and my mother a housewife. They were known among all our relatives
to be very good Muslims and were both very keen to teach me and
my only sister the proper Islamic teachings. Because I loved them
very much, I followed their good example. I was brought up to love
Islam and the Holy Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon
him). From an early age, I was trained to observe the Islamic injunctions
like offering the daily prayers and fasting during the month of
Ramadan.
In the year 1977 I got my BSC degree in civil engineering from
Cairo University, and in the same year I got married. My husband
was also a civil engineer. We both traveled together to London in
1979 where my husband got his master’s degree and later his PhD.
Then we settled permanently in England; my husband worked as a lecturer
in the university and I worked as a structural engineer in a consultant’s
design office. Allah granted us a son in 1983.
My traveling to England was a turning point in my life. It put
things in proper perspective for me. The Egyptians usually think
very highly of themselves. It seems that the famed pride of the
Pharaohs still runs in their blood even today. I was no different;
I was full of pride just for being Egyptian. I used to think that
we Egyptians are the most knowledgeable people in the world. This
of course applied also to the religious knowledge. I used to think
that we have Al Azhar University in Egypt and that this is proof
that – concerning religious matters – we are the best in knowledge.
But my life in England changed my attitude to a great extent. I
started dealing with other people from different nationalities and
backgrounds, and I realized that other people also have knowledge
and in most cases they excel Egyptians in their knowledge. This
brought me down to earth and got rid of some of my Egyptian arrogance.
My life in England also revealed to me the image of Islam in the
eyes of the western societies. Previously I was under the impression
that the beauty of Islam was known to everybody in the world. But
shortly after settling in England, I could see the reality of things.
I realized that in the Western Countries, the image of Islam was
very repulsive and unattractive. Islam is looked upon as a harsh
and aggressive religion, which preaches violence and bloodshed.
Muslims are regarded as the inferior people of the world.
I felt very protective about my religion, but in a way, I could
not blame the western people for this ugly impression about Islam.
It was the Muslims’ fault. Muslims are fighting together all around
the world. There is no unity, no peace and no love in the Islamic
countries. The Islamic commandments are mixed with a lot of impure
injunctions that have nothing to do with the true Divine teachings.
Muslims are lost in the pleasures of the material world, so how
should the west see any good in that religion?
I used to be extremely concerned about Islam, and I used to wonder
why did Allah leave His religion without any defense and protection?
I believed Islam to be the final and perfect Divine religion. Why
then did Allah allow the Muslims to corrupt its teachings? Why did
Allah not protect His religion from such pollution?
I used to worry a lot and cry a lot while praying to Allah to save
His religion from this calamity. My heart was bleeding with sorrow
for my religion.
At that time I thought to myself that I should be defending Islam
in some way. But I had no means of defense, except perhaps talking
to non-Muslims and showing them the true teachings of Islam. So
I started talking to my non-Muslim colleagues at work, and I tried
to explain to them that the negative impression of Islam that they
acquired through observing the Muslims of the present time had nothing
to do with the original teachings of Islam. I tried my best to uncover
the beautiful image of my religion, but little did I know about
its true teachings, and thus, I failed to convince anybody.
Yet I was continuously praying anxiously to Allah to manifest the
perfection of His final religion to mankind and to enable me to
serve this religion and spread it in the world.
Allah by His Grace and Mercy answered my prayers in a wonderful
way. He manifested to me His Graciousness and Mercy and He showed
me that my prayers were already accepted one hundred years before.
I got to know this one day, while talking to one of my Christian
colleagues about Islam. At that time, another colleague at work
interfered. He was a Sunni Muslim from Pakistan. He told me not
to talk about Islam with anybody because Islam is not a religion
to preach, and he added that only Christian people can preach their
religion, and as for Islam, Allah Himself will spread it in the
world. I was not convinced and I disagreed with what he said. I
told him that Islam is a blessing from Allah and we are lucky to
enjoy this blessing. But it is not right to keep it just for ourselves.
Allah likes us to share His blessings with the others. So we must
not deprive anybody of this great Divine blessing. My Pakistani
colleague did not like what I said, and he mentioned that I sounded
like the Ahmadis. I asked him who the Ahmadis were. He told me that
they were the members of the Ahmadiyya Muslim community, and they
believed in a new prophet who came to the world one hundred years
ago. He also told me that their prophet claimed to be the Promised
Messiah and the Imam Mahdi who is awaited by the Muslims. With my
deep-rooted Egyptian pride I answered that we are not in need of
any Mahdi or Messiah to guide us. We have the teachings of Islam
in the Holy Quran and we have the example of the Holy Prophet to
follow. So why do we need any body else to guide us? If we need
any guidance, we can ask our scholars of Al Azhar in Egypt.
At that time I felt very angry with those Ahmadis. I thought to
myself that they are even worse than the other Muslims because they
believe in a prophet after the Holy Prophet of Islam.
I felt very upset and I wished to meet those Ahmadis and try to
change their wrong beliefs. Allah granted me this wish instantly
because my colleague mentioned that his wife had an Ahmadi friend
who was preaching the Ahmadiyya teachings to her. He happened also
to have some Ahmadiyya literature from her. I decided to go and
see that Ahmadi lady, but first I requested my colleague to bring
me the Ahmadiyya literature, and he brought them to me the next
day. When he was giving me the books, he warned me saying that these
Ahmadis are kafirs - disbelievers - and that I should not be influenced
by whatever I read in their literature. I assured him that nothing
would change my beliefs.
I read the literature and I was extremely impressed. I could sense
the love of Allah and His Holy Messenger Muhammad (peace and blessings
of Allah be upon him) in every letter of these writings. I went
back to my colleague and asked him why he called those Ahmadis "Kafirs".
He told me that this was the verdict of the Muslim scholars; even
the scholars of Al Azhar in Egypt expressed this opinion. But I
told him that although I did not believe in the prophethood of the
founder of their movement, I still could not call them Kafirs. They
claim to be Muslims and they believe in the unity of Allah and in
the prophethood of Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon
him), so how can we call them kafirs then?
I was very keen to talk to the Ahmadi lady who provided these books
and my colleague arranged for this. She was a Pakistani lady. When
we had our first conversation, I was very impressed by her religious
knowledge. At that time I used to think that only the Arabs could
have any deep knowledge about Islam. But again, little did I know.
The main subject of our conversation was concerning the second
coming of Jesus. I did not have any previous opinion regarding this.
I was not aware of the Sayings of the Holy Prophet regarding the
appearance of the Son of Mary and the Imam Mahdi in the latter days
of the world. I only remembered one thing. When I was very young,
my mother once told me that some people believe that Jesus will
return to the earth before the end of the world. I recall that at
that time I asked her, how will we recognize him when he comes?
She answered me saying that if somebody claims to be Jesus and he
calls the people to worship the One and Only God, and does not abrogate
any of the injunctions of the Holy Quran or annul any of the teachings
of the Holy Prophet of Islam, then he must be the true Jesus.
I continued to see my Ahmadi sister, and during our meetings she
proved to me from the Holy Quran and the sayings of the Holy Prophet
that Jesus had already died and that the prophecies regarding his
second coming were to be fulfilled by the coming of another person
similar to Jesus in his mission. She also explained to me that Hazrat
Mirza Ghulam Ahmad, the founder of the Ahmadiyya movement, was that
person who fulfilled these prophecies.
This idea appealed to me, it sounded very reasonable and acceptable.
I started to study the teachings of Hazrat Mirza Ghulam Ahmad in
depth. I was amazed and deeply moved by whatever I read. I could
not find one fault in his teachings. It was an embodiment of the
teachings of the Holy Quran and the practice of the Holy Prophet
of Islam. The characteristic feature of his writings was the love
of Allah and the Holy Messenger of Islam on one side and the love
of humanity on the other. The teachings of Ahmadiyya had a beautiful
taste and flavor. I could feel the real essence of Islam in every
letter of these teachings. I had no doubt in my mind that Hazrat
Mirza Ghulam Ahmad was appointed by Allah as the awaited Reformer.
It was very clear to me that whatever he wrote was assisted by the
Divine support. The only thing, which was preventing me from accepting
Ahmadiyya, was his claim to be a prophet, because I believed that
Hazrat Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) was the
last prophet to mankind. At that time it occurred to me that maybe
Hazrat Mirza Ghulam Ahmad never claimed prophethood and that his
followers claimed this for him after his demise. But when I checked
this, I was told that he himself claimed to be a prophet.
I could not resist the urge forcing me to follow that exceptionally
holy person. His teachings were extremely appealing to me. It was
exactly what I wished for. I thought a lot about his claim concerning
his prophethood. I thought to myself that he was a just and truthful
man. He would never invent any false fabrication. If he said he
was a prophet then I must accept this. I convinced myself through
logic, his prophethood was not separate from the prophethood of
the Holy Prophet, on the contrary it was born out of it. It was
a blessing granted to the true followers of the Holy Prophet. So
in this case, we cannot say it is a new or a separate prophethood.
It was just a reflection of the original prophethood. In this way,
I was satisfied to accept the prophethood of Hazrat Mirza Ghulam
Ahmad.
So I accepted Ahmadiyya by taking the Bai`at - the pledge
- in July 1989.
My heart was deeply moved. I was very thankful to Allah that He
guided me to this beautiful truth. I was also very sad and sorry
that I did not know about this truth earlier, I lost many years
of my life without living as an Ahmadi. I had to make up for these
lost years.
I wished to cry loud and announce this beautiful news to everybody
in the world. The Awaited Reformer had come to save us and unite
us all under one banner. He had come to clear Islam from all pollution
and impurities and to spread this perfect Divine message in the
whole world. I wished to convey the message of the Promised Messiah
to all mankind. I felt that everybody now had the chance to follow
the true teachings of Islam. I decided that I would carry this message
back to my country, Egypt. I was sure that if this great news was
accepted by the Egyptians, then all the rest of the Arabs would
follow them very quickly.
It was time for hard work; I felt I should not lose any more time.
I knew my husband and my parents in Egypt would not accept my decision.
But I could not hold back.
I was ready to face any kind of hardship for the sake of Allah
and His true message.
By declaring my acceptance of the truth of the Promised Messiah
I started to confront an extreme opposition from my husband, relatives
and friends. Even my own parents and my only sister bitterly opposed
me. I had to sacrifice them all for the sake of the truth. And Allah
says in the Holy Quran:
"Say: If your fathers and your sons and your brethren and
your wives and your kinsfolk and the wealth you have acquired, and
the trade whose dullness you fear, and the dwellings you love, are
dearer to you than Allah and His Messenger and striving in His way,
then wait till Allah brings His command to pass. And Allah guides
not the transgressing people."
(Chapter 9: The Immunity: verse 24)
And for me the choice was "Allah and His Messenger and striving
in His way". They were the dearest to me. For their love, I
had to lose whatever and whoever I loved in my past life. My husband
divorced me and took my only son away from me because he feared
I might influence him with my religious beliefs. I had to leave
my house that I loved. I lost interest in my property and material
belongings. I even lost my job after I started wearing a headscarf,
thus declaring that I had become a true Muslim. On my first visit
to Egypt after my acceptance of Ahmadiyyat, I had to face the opposition
from my relatives and friends that continues until today. My parents
and my only sister and her husband opposed me very badly. They tried
to change my beliefs in every way they could. They arranged for
me to meet many religious scholars in the hope of changing my thoughts.
I never refused to discuss things with these scholars, because I
wished to preach Ahmadiyya to them. But nothing changed their stand,
and of course, none of them convinced me to leave the truth I adhered
to.
I had to start living on my own, leaving my past life behind. I
started a new life as an Ahmadi. I lived in London in a place very
close to the London Mosque – the center of the Ahmadiyya community
that I belonged to. The members of the Ahmadiyya Jamat became my
spiritual family. I continued to study the teachings of the Promised
Messiah through his books and through other literature produced
by the Ahmadiyya Jamaat. I devoted all my time and effort to the
service of the Jamaat, and I dedicated all the means at my disposal
for the purpose of preaching Ahmadiyyat to others. But for a reason
I did not know at the time, I utterly failed to convince anybody.
At the end of the year 1992, I got married to an Indian Ahmadi
from Qadian. Although I spent most of the time in London for the
sake of serving the Jamaat, I still had the opportunity to live
in Qadian for some time. Being in the birthplace of Hazrat Mirza
Ghulam Ahmad was a very pleasant experience. It gave me great pleasure
and satisfaction to live in the same place where the Promised Messiah
lived and preached his teachings and beliefs.
Allah granted me a daughter and a son out of my second marriage.
But unfortunately things did not go as desired between me and my
husband and we had to separate.
This brought me back to Egypt in July 1997. At that time my father
died, and I had no choice but to stay in Egypt for a while to deal
with some problems concerning the inheritance of my father’s property.
I felt very disturbed by my stay in Egypt, because I felt I was
away from my spiritual family – the members of the Jamaat Ahmadiyya
in London.
I could not stand the idea that I was not doing any service for
my Jamaat. So I bought myself a computer with the intention of doing
some work. I intended sending my work to the Jamaat in London through
the Internet service. But Allah had some other plan for me. When
I linked my computer to the Internet, naturally the first thing
I searched for was the site of the Ahmadiyya Jamaat. I found a site,
but it was not the site of my community, it was the site of the
Lahori movement.
At that time I remembered that when I accepted Ahmadiyyat, I heard
that after the demise of the Promised Messiah, his community split
into two. One was the community that I belonged to, whose center
was initially in Qadian and therefore was referred to as the Qadiani
movement, and the other was the Lahori movement whose center was
in Lahore. When I first heard about the Lahori movement, I was told
that they did not believe in the prophethood of Hazrat Mirza Ghulam
Ahmad, and also they did not enjoy the unity of leadership. I must
admit here that at that time I never tried to know more about the
Lahori community because I got the impression that the differences
between the two communities were concerning the leadership, and
that the split happened because the individuals, who later became
the Lahoris, wanted to be the leaders of the community. So I thought
that it was only a political difference.
Anyway, I never had a chance to meet any of the Lahori Ahmadis
in London.
Yet at that time I also remembered one more thing. Just before
I came to Egypt in 1997, I went to Pakistan for a visit. My husband,
knowing how much I loved the Promised Messiah and anything related
to him, took me on a tour in Lahore to show me the places associated
with the Promised Messiah. At that time I visited some places where
I saw pictures of Maulana Muhammad Ali and some other companions
of the Promised Messiah. When I asked my husband who those people
were, he told me that they were the companions who split from the
Jamat and established the Lahori section. I was very surprised at
that time. How could such people who were very close to the Promised
Messiah, go astray and create division in his community after his
death? I could not believe that they could have done this.
So back to my story. When I first found the web site of the Lahori
Ahmadis on the Internet, I did not bother to read any of its contents.
To me they were some Ahmadis who had gone astray.
For a few weeks after that I tried to contact my Jamaat in London
and to get some work done, but Allah did not enable me to do this.
I even thought of designing a new Arabic web site for the Jamaat.
But again Allah did not enable me to do it because he had another
plan for me.
Then one day – in October 1999 - I was just exploring the web sites
on the Internet, and again I came across the site of the Lahori
movement. Out of curiosity I thought I’d read some of its contents.
When I downloaded the web page, the first title which caught my
sight was: "Arabic translation and typesetting project in Egypt".
It was a report of a visit of an Ahmadi Lady to Egypt where she
visited Al Azhar. During her visit to Egypt she also arranged for
some of the books of the Lahori movement to be translated into Arabic,
together with the typesetting of some of the Arabic books of the
Promised Messiah.
Knowing how much the Azhar scholars oppose Ahmadiyya, I was very
surprised and impressed by that report. How could she manage this?
I wondered!
This report led me to read other contents of the site.
I continued on to read one topic after the other, I was very impressed.
The beliefs and teachings of the Promised Messiah were being introduced
in a very attractive manner.
Then I came across some topics addressing the Qadianis. I was struck
by what was written in that respect. I realized that the differences
between the Lahori Ahmadis and the Qadiani Ahmadis were based on
real religious issues concerning their beliefs and practices. Before
that, I had never tried to know anything about the Lahori Ahmadis,
because I got the impression that they had split from the main stream
as a result of some differences on the leadership of the community,
and this did not concern me much. But differences regarding religious
beliefs and practices were not something to be ignored.
When I first realized that the Lahoris were giving some arguments
against the beliefs of the Qadianis, I felt reluctant to continue
reading any further. But Allah drew my attention to something very
important which was happening to me at the same time.
At that same time, I happened to be – as usual – preaching Ahmadiyya
to some of my relatives. As I knew already that any religious discussion
with them produced a lot of hostility and aggression, I wrote a
few Arabic articles where I included some arguments in favor of
the Ahmadiyya beliefs, and then I distributed the articles among
them. But they did not read these articles. Instead, some gave them
to their favorite religious friends to read them and then give their
verdict. I was very angry. I told them that this is not right. We
should not blindly follow any body in religious matters. We must
not wait for anybody to make the decision for us in our religious
beliefs. We must find out the truth ourselves. We must seek guidance
from Allah alone and not from the people who can go astray and then
lead us astray behind them as well.
And so, when Allah reminded me of all this and when I thought about
my own experience with my relatives, it occurred to me that I was
doing the same thing concerning my attitude towards the Lahori movement.
My relatives were refusing to read the arguments in support of the
truth of Ahmadiyya and they were just blindly following their religious
leaders. Was not I doing the same thing? Wasn’t I refusing to read
the arguments of the Lahori Ahmadis and just following blindly whatever
I had been told before?
With these thoughts in my mind I continued reading the contents
of the web page that was addressing the Qadianis. Every point discussed
there was supported by some selections from the writings of the
Promised Messiah. I read all what was written there, and for the
first time since I joined the Ahmadiyya, I found myself without
an answer for the arguments given by the Lahori Ahmadis.
Since I accepted Ahmadiyya ten years before, I was used to the
fact that whatever arguments I heard, I would have an answer for
them. But not this time. I did not have any answer to whatever was
written there concerning the beliefs of the Qadiani Ahmadis. My
position reminded me of the position of the Sunni Muslims when they
come across any arguments in favor of the truth of the Promised
Messiah. They never had any answer for these arguments, but still,
out of stubbornness, they continued holding to their false beliefs.
My failure to find any answer to the arguments in favor of the
Lahori movement enabled me to sense the truth in them.
Hence I started thinking deeply about the whole subject.
The person who started the Lahori movement, Maulana Muhammad Ali,
was one of the closest companions of the Promised Messiah. How could
he go wrong? He was also joined by other companions as well. It
was not logical to me that all these companions could go astray
only a few years after the departure of the Promised Messiah from
the world.
I was very confused. I could not decide who was right and who was
wrong. I had some very mixed feelings at that time. I loved both
sides because both were followers of the Promised Messiah.
My feelings were that of a mother who had two children. Naturally
she loved them both. But her children were fighting between themselves
and she could not decide who was right and who was wrong because
of her extreme love for both of them. Yet if there was a fight,
then they could not both be right.
I wished to discuss things with one of the Lahori Ahmadis. So I
contacted the web site and I was very lucky to get an answer from
Sister Samina, the same lady who visited Egypt and wrote the report
on the website.
We exchanged a few messages, and Allah by His grace enabled us
later to meet in Cairo for a short while, when she kindly came for
a quick visit.
When I met her, I was very impressed by her. I felt that I had
known her for a long time. We discussed things in detail, and she
cleared up many points. She gave me a lot of books to read. After
she left I could not stop thinking about the matter.
Now I had to decide which one of the two communities was closer
to the truth.
Both the Qadianis and the Lahoris claim to be the true followers
of Hazrat Mirza Ghulam Ahmad; which party was closer to his teachings?
The issue of the nature of the prophethood of Hazrat Mirza Ghulam
Ahmad had to be the decisive point.
Each party claimed that it was the one believing in the true concept
of this prophethood.
Now this prophethood must not be separated from the prophethood
of the Holy prophet of Islam, otherwise it would be contradicting
the Quranic declaration that the Holy Prophet was the Seal of the
prophets.
I read very carefully the view of the Lahori movement concerning
this matter. I found that what was written there was not very different
from my own belief. I had read some of the Promised Messiah’s original
Arabic books and I had already understood this point. His prophethood
was a reflection of the prophethood of the Holy Prophet of Islam.
So it was not a separate thing. But there was one interesting point
for me here. This prophethood was to be taken in the metaphorical
sense and not in the real sense.
What difference does this make? It makes a lot of difference in
the practice and attitude of the Ahmadis towards the non-Ahmadi
Muslims. That was the difference between the Qadiani Ahmadis and
the Lahori Ahmadis.
The Qadianis take this prophethood in the real sense, and therefore
they put it as a condition, that, to be a Muslim, a person has to
believe in the prophethood of Hazrat Mirza Ghulam Ahmad. As for
the Lahoris they do not put this condition. They say that the belief
in the prophethood of Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be
upon him) is enough to declare a person as a Muslim.
In this respect the Lahoris are the correct party. Since the time
of the advent of the Holy Prophet, a person was declared a Muslim
if he believed in just two things, that ‘There is no god but Allah’
and that ‘Muhammad was His Messenger’. Even if that person did not
observe prayers or fasting and even if he did not obey the teachings
of Islam, no body had the right to declare him as a non-Muslim as
long as he believed in the above two points. He could be called
a ‘bad Muslim’ or a ‘disobedient Muslim’ but never a ‘non-Muslim’.
So here the Qadianis are wrong to put any further condition in addition
to the original two conditions for declaring any person to be a
Muslim, because this means that they are changing the original Islamic
principles of faith.
Now here there is a very important point to clarify. It might appear
from the present attitude of the Qadianis, that they do not regard
the non Ahmadi Muslims as non-Muslims, as they do not verbally call
them non-Muslims. But in all practical means they regard them as
non-Muslims. As a Qadiani myself, I did not regard the Muslims who
did not accept the truth of the Promised Messiah as ‘non-Muslims’.
I just called them ‘non-Ahmadi Muslims’. Yet in all practical sense
I did treat them as I would treat non-Muslims. As a Qadiani, I would
have never married my daughter to a non Ahmadi Muslim and I would
never pray behind a non Ahmadi Muslim. I would never even offer
funeral prayers for any non Ahmadi Muslim. Isn’t this exactly the
attitude of Muslims towards non-Muslims?
It is true that the Promised Messiah has asked his followers not
to pray behind some non-Ahmadi Imams. But the reason for this was
also explained by him. These people used to abuse the Ahmadis and
call them ‘kafirs’ and according to a hadith of the Holy prophet,
the person who calls somebody a kafir, becomes himself a kafir.
Therefore the Promised Messiah forbade his followers to pray behind
those Imams because, by declaring Ahmadis to be kafirs, they themselves
became kafirs, and a Muslim must not pray behind a kafir. Yet this
does not mean that Ahmadis should generalize this and make it a
rule and treat all the non-Ahmadi Muslims as kafirs. In other words
we must treat the non Ahmadi Muslims who do not call us ‘kafirs’,
in the same manner as we would treat ‘real Muslims’.
Now regarding the leadership of the community. Previously I was
under the wrong impression that the Lahori community was without
a leader. This made me think that the Lahori Ahmadis must be on
the wrong path, because in the unity of the leadership lies the
unity of the Muslims. Unity of leadership is an essential feature
of Islam and without it, the unity of the Muslims can never be achieved.
But after reading some information about the Lahori movement, I
found out that there was a leader for the community, though not
in the image I expected. I also discovered that the Promised Messiah
himself had appointed his own successor to lead his community after
his departure from this world. During his lifetime, the Promised
Messiah established the Anjuman an executive body consisting
of fourteen members and he described this body as his successor.
This was mentioned in his book Al-Wasiyyat. The Lahori community
still holds this Anjuman as its leader. In other words, the Lahori
community is the one who is following these instructions of the
Promised Messiah.
Now it was obvious to me which party of the two was following the
true teachings of the Promised Messiah and therefore was on the
right path.
Knowing the truth was not enough for me. I had to follow it myself
and also declare it to others. If I do not follow this truth, I
will be a hypocrite, and if I do not declare it to others, I will
be a coward.
This was a difficult situation again. When I first converted to
Ahmadiyya I had to sacrifice all my material belongings and my relatives
and friends. But this time it was different. It was my spiritual
belongings and my spiritual relatives and friends that had to be
sacrificed. I must say that the latter group is much dearer to me
than the former. For me the spiritual ties are much stronger than
the material or physical ones. But I had no choice; Allah and His
true religion are dearer to me than anything else.
I decided to join the Lahori movement. In November 1999 I submitted
my Bai`at.
Now I pray for my spiritual relatives and friends, the members
of the Qadiani Ahmadiyya Jamat. I pray to Allah that they will not
react in the same manner as my physical relatives and friends in
Egypt did before them. I appeal to my Qadiani brothers and sisters,
my spiritual family, please do not treat me in the same way as my
physical family did before you. Remember how I was suffering for
my own family to join me in seeing the truth of Ahmadiyya? I will
be suffering for you all now to join me in following the true teachings
of Hazrat Mirza Ghulam Ahmad. You have witnessed my pain and anguish
in my prayers for the sake of my own people in Egypt. Now with this
same grief and agony I will be praying for you, because I love you
all.
Two parties are claiming to be the true followers of the Promised
Messiah, but the truth cannot lie on both sides. Our duty is to
check the beliefs and practices of both parties, then compare this
with the ‘Original’ writings of the Promised Messiah. Our duty is
to seek guidance from Allah alone and not to follow any body else
blindly. Allah is the One who guides his true servants to the straight
path, but people can lead others astray.
I pray to Allah to manifest the truth for the seekers.
I pray for the two parties claiming to be the followers of Hazrat
Mirza Ghulam Ahmad to unite together under his true teachings.
I pray for all the Ahmadis to combine their efforts together and
join hands, to spread the true teachings of Islam in the world and
conquer the hearts of the entire population of the globe.
I pray for my people in Egypt to accept Hazrat Mirza Ghulam Ahmad
as the awaited Imam Mahdi and the Promised Messiah.
I pray for all mankind to see the beautiful truth of Ahmadiyyat.
Oh Allah! please accept my humble prayers.
Amen!
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